I was on the treadmill this morning and I was thinking about how life can possibly be made worthwhile in such a short amount of time? I thought about coming & going and this & that and how many dead friendships I will have to mourn & whether people appreciate having cookies made for them. No, actually I thought about what I would write in my blog. I decided on, "I was on the treadmill this morning I was thinking about how life can possibly be made worthwhile in such a short amount of time." And now I will bake cookies.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1) being alone
2) any form of child abuse
3) birds
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
1) NATO
2) telephones
3) how television show ratings are determined
THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
1) computer programming
2) gardening
3) how to light a fire without matches
THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1) striped capris
2) a black shirt
3) black shoes
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1) a framed color-pencil drawing by a student of a stick figure sitting on a hill and a rabbit, orange sun, V birds, and a tree with a single apple...
2) a bag of miscellaneous sentences put together by students for the story I have yet to finish
3) a candle
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1) make a baby (i think)
2) meet people i've yet to meet
3) travel the world
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1) open
2) curious
3) magnetic
THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) open
2) over-sensitive
3) over-eager
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1) german
2) irish
3) sass
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) boobs
2) neck
3) eyes
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) height
2) ass
3) too-small muscles
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1) how easily and often i feel neglected
2) my craving for wholesomeness
3) the lengths i would go for them
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) actually
2) like
3) honestly
THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1) africa
2) nassau
3) belize
A friend of mine came to see me at work yesterday with the most outrageous favor imaginable! He asked the impossible from me!! He uttered those five works that makes me shiver with fear...."Can you keep a secret?" UGH! Of course I can't keep a secret...i've never been able to keep a secret. I've told my friends over and over again if they have a secret or any piece of information that they don't want everyone else to know...DON'T TELL ME!! I can't even keep my own secrets. Do I have secrets? Sure I do, doesn't everybody? I'm not talking about big, earth-shattering secrets. Not the-president-is-going-to-bomb-japan-and-only-denzel-washington-can-save-the-world type secrets. Just normal, everyday little secrets. Like, for example, here are a few random secrets of mine, off the top of my head: 1. I have a fake Kate Spade bag. Wow...I could probably go on for days sharing all my secrets.
2. I have no idea what exactly NATO really is.
3. I don't really weigh 108 lbs. like it says on my drivers license. (Although in my defense, I was going on a diet)
4. It was me who jammed the copier that time. In fact, all the times.
5. When my sister really annoyed me, I would feed orange juice to her plants.
6. Sometimes, right in the middle of passionate sex, I have the urge to laugh.
7. I've already drank the wine my dad told me to save for twenty years.
8. My sisters goldfish isn't the same goldfish she left with me to take care of when she left for vacation.
9. I hate G-strings because I think they are nasty and unhealthy
I can already tell it's going to be a bad day. I rolled out of bed early this morning. First thing, I had my attention called to the fact that I had made a mistake. Well, we all make mistakes, but the only available excuse for this one was pointy-headed obliviousness, (I was STOOpid) and that's not a very comfortable excuse to fall back on. Moving on with my morning, I went to get some for-the-road-breakfast--and gave myself a nasty papercut trying to open a box of slim fast. Couldn't find matching work shoes, had to wear summer shoes to work. Getting out to my car--just as I tossed my bag into the drivers seat, some stuff (that I need) slipped out of the front pouch, hit the ground and rolled dead center under the car. So, I'm running behind schedule, morning traffic is racing by and I'm down on my knees scrambling around underneath the car. Got to work--first thing I see when I get to my desk is a note to call a parent. This is practically NEVER a good thing. I'm going to put it off until later in the afternoon, because I can. Yep-- this is going to be a long day.
why is everyone in america so OIL & WATER.... why can't we just be mayonaise?
Victim mentality. Or, more specifically, the mentality of sexual abuse victims...been thinking about this recently because I know someone whose behavior eerily follows the same pattern as others who have gone through the same thing...its almost like a need to validate onesself through other people. Allowing them to do as they wish with you, without realizing your true value. It almost becomes THE way to do things and feels natural; if someone is attractive or attracted to you, you just go ahead and let everything run its course. Let them do as they wish with you, feeling as if this is what "love" is, to let people stomp over you and take what they want without a care for your own feelings. I've let myself do this, but seeing someone else do it makes me see that I can't talk to her about it without admitting that I have come from a similar background and done the same damn thing. Unconsciously.
i would be nothing without the people in my life on another note....Massive migraine. took two shots of imitrex i was in so much pain. i believe these are getting more and more frequent; must sleep regularly.
just a shadow
nothing more
nothing less
This may say aqua.....but YELLOW is my favorite color!! That is all. :)
AQUA
You enjoy life, humor, and being exuberant. Wherever you go you usually find yourself stealing the spotlight without even trying. You love to let go and have fun.
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sometimes life is so melancholy it feels like you've been twisted into knots, all of them painful, but occasionally it's with that type of pain you get when you're receiving a rather vigorous massage. it's only been a few months since i said goodbye to a very dear friend, for what i thought would be forever. "goodbye K and good riddance!!" yesterday i got an email from him then we spent like four hours last night talking--about love..about life--mostly about love. for some reason, i don't think the distance of a universe could keep us from loving each other, no matter how hard we try to fight it. the key is to not run away. the key is to not let fear overtake you. once fear overtakes you, the flowers begin to wilt, the wheels slow down, the skies become grey, the tears begin to fall. recently i had a tarot card reading, just for fun...but they told me to pay more attention to the things in life that i do have and not to obsess over the things in life that i don't have. i didn't really understand the logic of how that related to my life but i think it's beginning to make sense to me now. ***Remember all the families of those who lost a loved one in the tragic event of 9/11***
thoughts of everyone i've ever loved keep racing through my mind the details of those thoughts are maybe best remained hidden for now...maybe they'll be put to use in later poetry....suffice to say, that although it has made a blessed and abundant presence in my life, i do believe love will possibly be my greatest lesson to learn from during my time here on this earth...
i've been lucky enough to love and be loved by the most extraordinary men and women i think i could ever meet...the memories!! beaches, deserts, hikes, cars, bars, dance floors...the sounds of someone's laughter, the pain of remembering that last glance...i am so close to regret over some of the decisions i made, but i know that that would be foolish, and that nothing comes without a price...or a lesson...
one day i'll find the courage to write letters to all of them...to tell them exactly how much i still cherish them, to tell them how grateful i was and still am...i have loved healers, jokers, magicians, geniuses, musicians, poets, witches and saints and all of them were gentle, beautiful souls...i've kissed them with passion, i've tasted their tears and been warmed by their hands and lips and eyes
i have been drunk on love, and the hangover has been giggles and tickles and sighs
and despite this bliss, i am still left questioning everything...and precisely the question "what is love?" ....."how do i love thee? let me count the ways!" what is love? is love god? is love just a chemical reaction? an illusion? or the single binding force that keeps the human race alive and still thriving? is it nothing? or everything?
i suppose for now, i'll be satisfied by answering "it is what it is and what it has always been" i like the finality of that.
what happens to people who discover bodies?
i imagine it changes your life in a most disturbing and unpleasant way.
Our principal e-mailed this suggestion to staff members last week as a possible message to put on our school's answering machine. Only four weeks into the year, we already have parents complaining!!!! Luckily, I have a wonderful set of parents and so far I haven't experienced that many complaints. I wonder if parents would be offended with the message?!?! "Hello! You have reached the automated answering service of name of school.
In order to assist you in connecting the right staff member, please
listen
to all your options before making a selection:
"To lie about why your child is absent - Press 1
"To make excuses for why your child did not do his work- Press 2
"To complain about what we do - Press 3
"To swear at staff members - Press 4
"To ask why you didn't get information that was already enclosed in your
newsletter and several flyers mailed to you - Press 5
"If you want us to raise your child - Press 6
"If you want to reach out and touch, slap or hit someone - Press 7
"To request another teacher for the third time this year- Press 8
"To complain about bus transportation - Press 9
"To complain about school lunches - Press 0
"If you realize this is the real world and your child must be
accountable
and responsible for his/her own behavior, class work, homework, and that
it's not the teachers' fault for your child's lack of effort:
Hang up and have a nice day!"
ON THE OUTSIDE ON THE INSIDE YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW DO YOU? IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU EVER GETTING OLDER IN THE NUMBERS
Name: tara
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: blonde
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: cancer
Chinese Zodiac: ox
Your heritage: american...but i think we all have a little mutt
Shoes you wore today: flip flops...don't ya just love that sound
Your weakness: i care too much
Your fears: losing someone i love
Your perfect pizza: just cheese please
Goal you'd like to achieve: just to know i've made a decent name for myself and given back half as much as i've been blessed w/ myself
Your thoughts first waking up: ugh, what am i gonna wear today???
Your best physical feature: my eyes or my smile :)
Your bedtime: i wish i had one
Your most missed memory: my senior year of high school
YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: fries from McDonald's
Single or group dates: you usually have more fun with a group (until later on....lol)
Adidas or Nike: nike ..i think we own stock in nike
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: not a tea drinker
Chocolate or vanilla: how about we swirl them together....sound good?!
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino on a cold winter day....french vanilla please :)
Smoke: no thanks
Cuss: only when i'm pissed
Take a shower: now that's a DUMB question, doesn't everybody?!
Have a crush(es): brad pitt is hot :P
Think you've been in love: yeah
Like(d) high school: of course..those were the days!!
Want to get married: i am married
Believe in yourself: it's hard, but i try
Get motion sickness: only on a boat
Think you're attractive: i'm not a DOG, but i'm not full of myself either! (hot or not gives me a 9.5)
Think you're a health freak: not a freak!! ..but i care
Get along with your parents: i worship the ground my parents walk on
Like thunderstorms: LOVE them
Play an instrument: piano
Drank alcohol: not in the past month Gone on a date: with my husband
Gone to the mall: yep, and bought way too much
Been on stage: sadly, yes....but the karaoke was great! :)
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: wow, i think i'd vomit
Eaten sushi: i know i'd vomit!
Been dumped: don't think so
Gone skating: i used to spend my friday and saturday nights at the skate-a-rama!!
Gone skinny dipping: yes...but i have a pool, so it's harmless
Dyed your hair: highlights Stolen anything: no
Played a game that required removal of clothing: strip poker babe
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: unfortunately, yeah
Been caught "doing something": *giggles* yeah
Been called a tease: lol..yeah, but all in fun
Gotten beaten up: never been in a fight
Shoplifted: not on purpose: no Changed who you were to fit in: no, i've always just been tara :)
Age you hope to be married: been there already
Numbers of Children: just one
Describe your dream wedding: barefoot on the beach
How do you want to die: i think that's a decision for a power much higher than myself
What do you want to be when you grow up: i wanted to be a teacher, and i am :)
What country would you most like to visit: my feet are firmly planted on usa turf...but i'd love to go to Italy
IN A GUY/GIRL
Best eye color?: who cares?
Best hair color?: once again, who cares??
Short or long hair: lol....who cares??
Height: taller than myself (and i'm 5' 2'' on my tippy toes)
Best first date location: anyplace you can have good conversation
Articles of clothing: lol...i would at least hope he could dress himself!
Best first kiss location: ...i can't believe i'm answering these....
Number of people I could trust with my life: i trust no one
Number of CD's I own: i couldn't begin to even guess
Number of piercings: 3 in one ear, 2 in the other ear and a belly ring
Number of tattoos: none, i pass out at the sight of needles
Number of scars on my body: just a couple
Number of things in my past that I regret: too many to count
i've been feeling some kind of reallllly nice creative vibes in the past few days...maybe i got all inspired when my coworker informed me that i "look creative...like an artist! are you an artist?" pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft....nah.
Name: "peach"
Bday: july 12
Sign: cancer
yahoo contact: ugapeach04
[[ My Adores ]]
I love the fingers of a baby, the pads on a puppies paw, and I adore you if you love your mom! I love homemade ice-cream, bubblegum, daisies and handwritten things.
Food: pizza
Drinks: dr. pepper
Pastimes: music
People: diverse
[[ My Detests ]]
I hate feeling alone, feeling like I'm being chased, air blown directly in my face!
People: dramatic
Things: birds
Food: meats
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